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Happy Fucking Halloween!!!

Journal Entry: Wed Oct 31, 2012, 5:42 AM


Only the best holiday ever!
And basically the only one I celebrate besides my birthday and Chris and I's anniversary bwahaha

We're going to Crabby's with some local friends tonight for half price appetizers and Guinness.
That is the highlight of my day...
I wish I had more to do! .. but oh well.
Maybe if I have time and can brave the cold winds I'll take some stock outside... oh shit but my remote battery is dead.

What's everyone doing today?

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Dark groups?

Journal Entry: Mon Oct 29, 2012, 6:10 AM


Wondered if anyone knows more dark/gothic photography groups?
I'm in a few (not going to list them cause I can't remember what they are)
But if you know any do you mind listing them please? =)

I LOVE the shoot I did the other day, SUPER love it! I want to do more dark shoots like that. I feel like I've been holding off doing super dark gothy shoots due to the fact I want to do them in certain seasons with certain photographers. Well, one down! Was supposed to have a shoot today and tomorrow but there's no way I'm going out in this weather lol.

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Belgium anyone?

Journal Entry: Mon Oct 22, 2012, 7:36 AM


I have a friend in Belgium who is very alternative, has done a tiny bit of modeling but would like to do more. She is having problems finding photographers around her. Just shouting out wondering if there's anyone on my watch list who is a photographer in Belgium! =)

PS like her page!
www.facebook.com/Valice.Nebula

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4 fucking calendars

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 21, 2012, 9:02 AM


Ya.. 4! Different ones!

Every year I do photos for my parents' insurance calendars they give out to their customers for free. Nature, animals etc.

Secondly I always do high quality calendars of my creative shoots as a photographer.
I am unsure if I even have enough to do a calendar, I might need to take some shots from last year... I try to sell them but barely anyone buys them. I might sell 5 or so. But mainly doing it for myself, I like to have it.

Third, I am doing another one of the cheaper/freebie calendars of my equine photography. I am selling add space to those who have their own equine business in my area. Not making anything off these, those who are paying for add space just pay the cost to print them, then hand them out free to their customers. Free advertising for me, for equine photos! (which I like to think is one of my specialties)

FOURTH.. I've ended up with over 4000 likes on my fb modeling page and some of my 'fans' are interested in purchasing a calendar of my modeling images. SO I am putting together a calendar of that too. I decided to do a few photos a month, but all from the same shoot, as I couldn't choose between landscape or portrait lol.

On top of all that, I've had a lot of shoots lately. A creative the other day which was TF and some paid work too! Super busy, it's not a bad thing, but I still need to work on scheduling so I can keep up and not burn myself out.
I did decide to take Mondays off, as a catch up day or do nothing day.

Hope all is well with everyone =)

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The date is set...

Journal Entry: Thu Oct 11, 2012, 8:21 AM


November 25
TATTOO!!!!!

Don't ask cause I'm not telling what I'm getting
You'll just get to see photos!
I might only get the outline done first, then go back for the rest as it's going to pretty much be a half sleeve on my upper left arm.

I am super stoked, but SO fucking nervous lol!
I am wimping out and getting the numbing spray.

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I am sorry to everyone

Journal Entry: Thu Oct 4, 2012, 7:29 PM


I have like no time for DA!
I have over 2000 watches I need to look through but don't wanna just delete them..

I have been busy like crazy!
Lots of horse shows/clinics and horse shoots
I'm photographing horse shows 3 days in a row sat sun and mon.. going to be crazy!
But it's the last horse show of the year around here so I wanna go out with a bang lol

I did a 'model' shoot today which was fun, haven't done one in a while.
Posted one image, might post another soon before heading to bed.

I am 100% booked for October.. CRAZYNESS!!!!!
My eye has been twitching for 2 days due to lack of sleep, but I am having this problem where even if I can sleep in, I can't!
I just wake up anyways, wtf?! lol

I am seeing a life coach to help me with my life in general.
There's a lot I need to work on.
I can't schedule worth a crap, I don't know what to do about a lot of things, I tend to not stick to my guns and let people walk all over me.
Had 2 sessions so far, they are helping =)

Haven't really posted any photography on here for a while, it's hard when you have to upload one image at a time.

Feel free to check out my fb page (I post there, even though quality isn't as great, I have the most people see my work there hence why).

I hope all is well with everyone, please feel free to leave me a comment saying how you are and what's new and I'll try to get back to it as soon as I have some spare time.
Or fb me!

www.facebook.com/MadnessInspir…

www.facebook.com/pages/Dark-En…

Hope all is well with everyone, sending you all lots of love <3

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Ah fuck (long entry beware)

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 27, 2012, 2:06 PM


Firstly, I have a lot of replies and comments to catch up on
For everyone who read and replied to my last entry, yeah maybe I'll just upload one shot from things here and there, but just lately I don't even have time to.
I doubt I'll leave DA, it's just hard to have time for a bunch of websites with everything else going on in my life right now


Secondly
I am fucking dehydrated and it really  sucks!
I've never been dehydrated before and had no idea wtf was wrong with me!
Upset stomach, feel like I'm gonna barf, racing heart, fever and migrane (my eyes fucking hurt)

I had a horse shoot Friday out in the sun, got quite thirsty, did have a bit of a drink but forgot most of it at the barn.

Saturday I spent most of the day at a dressage clinic, in the sun, doing photos of the clinic.
I had one drink the entire time I was there.
Grabbed a drink on the way home and chugged it back.

Sat night I started having stomach pains, no idea why

Sun morning my eyes hurt a bit and didn't want to open them much
Off to the horse show I went, another full day of photographing horses in the sun - no shade....
Had one drink yet again.
Actually had 2 drinks with me but left one in the car, then it got really hot and gross

Came home, exhausted, went to bed.
Woke up this morning with a headache/migrane
As the day went on my stomach hurt more, I felt like barfing (still do), then noticed I felt hot and cold, have a fever of 102

Had to cancel my shoot this evening as there's no way I can drive and do photos, I can barely even stand up (btw I took 3 breaks from writing this so far I am so fucking exhausted)

So I licked up some salt and my dad is off to the store to get some Gatorade and citrus fruit to help get some electrolytes into me.

My back just started twitching.. weird

Anyways I hope I get over this asap as I have riding lessons to teach, another shoot this week.. GUH...

I can't fucking wait for my vacation Friday-Monday.. wanting to stay another day, not sure if I can but maybe I can.

And now I have no idea if I'm even doing the shoot Thurs or not...
Was supposed to have someone come with me, to drive with me plus modeling as well (it's a model shoot)
I even bought a specific outfit for it
But now I'd have to go by myself and do my own hair (I suck at hair) and I can't put on eyelashes and I don't wanna drive home in the dark, I am too fucking paranoid about hitting animals especially for a long distance..
The photographer is talking about a replacemet if I can't go instead of doing it another time...
SO I don't know WTF I am doing


I have OFFICIALLY worn myself the FUCK out.
I better be making a ton of money from the horse events..

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Hmm

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 25, 2012, 7:35 AM


I'm not sure if I'm going to continue posting my work on DA or not
Only reason is I already upload everything to FB as that is where my main audience is (almost 3000 fans)
Uploading it twice is a lot of work, especially since I can only upload one at a time and lately I've had a lot of shoots and a lot of photos!
This past horse shoot I'm doing 20+
I thought of just picking a couple to upload, which I might, but sometimes it's hard to choose which ones to upload..
I'll still upload stock of course and probably my personal creatives.
I'm just not sure what to do, I like showing my work but it's SO time consuming and I don't have the time to upload!
I did a horse shoot last night, I am off in a couple hours to photograph a dressage clinic, tomorrow I am photographing a horse show and the next day another horse shoot.
Can't complain, everything is paid! (clinic and show paid if someone from the event wants photos but it's possible payment, the other two are paid).

Anyways.. bah!
Sucks I can't keep up with DA, I do like this site and the people on it!

If anyone wants to follow me on fb to see all my work: www.facebook.com/MadnessInspir…

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YESS!!!!

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 19, 2012, 8:17 AM


Chris and I are going away for 4 days fuck yeah!!
Might not sound like much of anything but it'll be great for me/us.
I don't even care to go far, we're just hanging out in London the whole time and getting a room.
Just chill time!

On another note.. financial situation is really getting to me.
It's hard having photography as a career, especially in a tiny town.
Nobody can afford things and those who can don't want to pay for anything.
I really need more paid shoots!
I put my prices up a month or two ago - to what I think my work is worth and it's still not that much $.
Not one booking.. so I -20%
I have one booking for September but so far that is it.
I even have a deal for the last week of August, but nothing.
I'm trying to find better ways to advertise.. someone told me to post on kijiji so I did, even though it seems a bit unprofessional.
Thought about the paper, but I don't think younger people really even read it.
Radio, thought about it but unsure?
Anyways, I have a feeling I'll kick myself in the ass and drop them even lower just to get people to book something.
Some $ is better than no $ but at the same time it's not right for people to think photographers only cost X amount when in reality, professional photographers shouldn't be too cheap. =(
I try to do deals for people for those who can't afford photos, I don't mind doing deals if I know they're honest people who can't afford much.
I also tell people at times, if you get me 2 paid shoots from your friends/family I'll do yours for free.
They seem excited at first but never actually end up doing that lol.
Anyways that's just some rambling!

I have 2 more riding lesson students.. I think anyways.
But I don't want too many students either as that takes up a lot of time and I don't get paid enough $ for the time really, but I do them cheaper so people can afford them.
I really wish Simon (my own horse) was sound enough to do lessons but his arthritis is bothering him.
He could maybe do small kids, but nobody over 80lbs I don't think..
And Xerxes is just TOO much horse to learn on!

I also hope to get my tattoo in Sep or Oct!

What's new with everyone? I've been slow on watch messages lately!

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My family are ass holes (for the most part)

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 17, 2012, 8:03 AM


So this entry is basically me bitching, feel free to not read what I'm about to write but it's really bothering me so I'm writing it.

I've been a professional photographer for 5 years now.
In that time, my mum's side of the family has had 3 weddings.. 3 of my cousins got married.
Not one single person even asked me about wedding photos - even though I'd do it next to nothing or possibly even free for family..
And my mum's side of the family is quite large, there's over 50 people

My one cousin's wife (mum's side) asked me to do maternity photos last year, so I did (paid but a discounted rate).
After their son was born, they went to a studio photographer to get family photos done.. didn't even ask me
Their son's 1 yr just passed and I gave him photos as a present
And I noticed they went to someone else for photos of him.. either right before I did them or right after...
If they went before, it's hurtful because they didn't even ask me to do them..
If they went after, it's still hurtful because they don't think my work is good enough and went to someone else..

I did free photos for my aunt and uncle for their anniversary, they really liked them.. however they never asked for photos once..
My other aunt and uncle (still on mum's side here) had a photo shoot recently, but only because the proceeds were going to their daughter in law Jenna who has breast cancer in the states..
My grandma (still on mum's side) bought one of my calendars this year (but no other year).. however she never hung it up.. oh right nobody likes my work ok.
I also did free photos of my mum's mum and all her children so they had a nice family photo - and gave EVERYONE IN THE FAMILY FREE PRINTS.
Yesterday I did photos of my other cousin's 6 yr old daughter, it was her birthday present from me.
She likes to dress up, so she was a fairy princess for photos.
My cousin really appreciates them and loves them, but she's still never asked about photos ever.

Now for dad's side
It's not as big but there's still a few
My one aunt ACTUALLY HAD ME DO HER WEDDING PHOTOS! Wow ONE person hires me how wonderful!
I gave her a huge discount but didn't mind, she's family
My grandma bought prints of my photography when I first started out (I think they're kinda meh compared to what I do now but she loves them) and she still has them hanging on the walls.

Yep that's it.
Out of my many family members, only one person has actually asked and paid me to do photos.
It's bothered me for quite some time, but today, after seeing my cousin went to someone else for photos.. AGAIN.. I am really hurt... really really hurt actually.
Even if I got suckered into doing them for free, they didn't even ask me to do the photos..

Love you too.. ass hole.

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Stock Requests

Journal Entry: Sun Jul 29, 2012, 4:38 PM


I'm going to take some time this week (just not sure which day yet) to do some new stock and since I'm getting a big ink piece done on the upper part of my left arm in the next month or two, if anyone has any requests for certain stock which you do not really prefer tattoos (even though I already have a small one but it's easy to get rid of in photos), please let me know!

I won't necessarily be able to do it depending on wardrobe, but feel free to let me know anyways and I will see what I can do!

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GEEELKHgskth;dlj g

Journal Entry: Sun Jul 29, 2012, 12:02 PM


Ok so I just got back from a tattoo consult appt with Jay Stirling xD

www.facebook.com/jay.stirling.…

It was a last minute plan to go see him to talk about tattoo ideas I have and decide which one I am going with

So I chose and am going to do my upper arm!
Gave him a deposit to draw it and will hopefully book my appt within a month or two!

I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!

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DA Work On Fb

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 26, 2012, 4:55 AM


Ok first nobody take this personally, this is just my take on things

I know a lot of people write do not post my work on other sites and such, as you don't want an art theift or someone cropping or editing your work, or putting their name on it, totally get that I feel the exact same way. I am very protective of my work.

But, I see a LOT of fb pages that post beautiful images from DA because they want to share with others the beautiful images they see.

I don't mind if they share one of my images, but I don't have a big copyright on my older work.

What I suggest is maybe don't go after these people about re posting your work so much, because in the end, with the internet, we can't stop everyone, but do make sure that you have a GOOD water mark on your image! Make sure it's readable, large, not just in a bottom corner that could be cropped out. Make sure no matter what people can see that it is YOUR work!

I've sent my work to some sites for them to put up on their page to show others, with credits, but some just find it and put it up anyways. Some do care about giving proper credits, some do not.

Now that one person who has been platering their name over every single image - even Anne Stoke's, is just WRONG that needs to be stopped.

Anyways, just from my point of view, I see a lot of people I know on DA's work on fb pages, but for a good cause, to show their beautiful art. Just make sure that you have good water marks! Plaster your name all over lol!

Hope all is well with everyone <3 .

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Everybody look at this!!!!

Journal Entry: Mon Jul 23, 2012, 6:02 PM


Jenn did such an amazing job on this piece!
Go comment and fave it!!!
<3

The Cold Despair by DemonikaDemise

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So many shoots

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 14, 2012, 7:42 AM


Holy shit I didn't realize how busy I've just become

I had 2 shoots yesterday
First was a hair shoot for a hair dresser, she's going to put up a big image of the photo I did in her salon (yay advertising for me!)
Second was a shoot for my cousin Jenna with breast cancer (proceeds go to her in the USA for treatment) with Ryan and my dad's 99 vette so those were some fun photos

Btw don't think I'll be posting much of paid shoots anymore, if any Maybe one image per shoot to give an idea of what I am doing, but I want to show my creative pieces here.

Had a shoot this morning
It is my aunt and uncle's 40th wedding anniversary so I did their photos
Already done editing those, needed to do them fast so I don't get behind!

I am photographing a horse show tomorrow (paid)
Have one client for that, may have others once I get there
Then tomorrow evening I am doing photos of my other aunt and uncle (for Jenna, it's their daughter in law)

Monday paid horse shoot in the evening!

And btw, I have a pile of messages/comments etc to reply to but I don't quite have the time at the moment and I'm on a computer without a mouse (lap top, I hate the built in mouse!!)

Anyways, hope all is well with everyone!

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Good Shoot

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 12, 2012, 5:55 AM


Wow yesterday was a LONG day of shooting!
I ended up doing 3 different outfits which I rarely ever do more than one for a shoot lol

I went over to Sylv's around 3 and finished getting ready as Iain was going to shoot both of us

*quick stop to LCBO for a bottle of wine*
bahahaha

Started just after 4 in an abandoned house
Some guy pulled up and said he owns the place, didn't want us in there (I think he may have been a mennonite)
I'm all "I know about liability and your point of view, but we are not the type of people that would do anything (sue) if we got hurt. We're just photographers and thought this spot was awesome to take photos"
So after he said no to Iain (photographer) I talked him into saying ok we could stay lol!
Did two outfits there, one with more colour and one more grungy/casual

Was at the abandoned house til almost 7 or so, then ran home, put on lighter make up, grabbed a skirt and headed back out.

Stopped at a place near me with a bunch of pallets
I strapped Sylv into one of my steel boned corsets (she has never worn a corset before let alone steel bone haha!)
So she got some awesome sexy shots in that!
I did some more grungy casual shots there

Then we went to the beach for a few shots as the sun set
I played in the water a bit

Got to check out all the images, very happy with how they turned out!
The shoot lifted me up, I feel good from it, but I am tired as hell now and have a lot to do today and tomorrow!

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Ceeerrrap

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 11, 2012, 5:37 AM


Shoot today (modeling) which has been planned for quite a while
Really excited about it..
..except I have NO IDEA WHAT TO WEAR lol go figure

Had an outfit planned out, but thought it was too bright and happy for me
I just don't do pink and white...
And the pink corset is more salmon colour which I didn't know when I bought it

I think we're going to an abandoned house thing..
So i might find an outfit a bit darker
But I want to save my good dark gothic outfits for fall and winter shoots!
I don't like gothic looks in summer with all the green, it just doesn't look right

Sooo yeah... *shrug*
I might wear my white/silvery wig though for something different.

2 shoots on Friday (photographer)
Training some horses tomorrow
Another shoot Sunday (photographer)
Shoot Monday as well (photographer)

Then I think I'll take a bit of a break again to make sure I can catch up on edits
Don't wanna rush life but I can't wait for fall!!!

And my bestie had her baby yesterday!!!
Baby Elliott born at 6 34 am!
So excited to go meet him!!!

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Ugh

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 5, 2012, 4:12 AM


So weather once again is ruining lesson plans for Megan!
We're going out to visit Tess anyways (the horse Megan rides for lessons)

Chiro this afternoon, much needed

Waiting for Tanya and Pete to have their baby Elliott!
She is due today so we'll see when he decides to come!

No plans til Wednesday, have a shoot as a 'model'
Going to wear a pink corset.. yep I said pink
It's not my favourite one but it ws a $30 fashion boned corset, fine for some photos for something different.
I'm not a 'pink girl' but it's good to have different looks in portfolio anyways.
Works for summer as well, I don't like wearing all black with green trees, doesn't appeal very gothic lol.

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FB

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 3, 2012, 12:25 PM


Love/Hate relationship with FB buttttt
If anyone wants to check out my pages and like them..

www.facebook.com/pages/Dark-En…

www.facebook.com/pages/Madness…

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DA Question

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 3, 2012, 5:23 AM


I notice some people have fancy backgrounds in their gallery, how do you do this??

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