I've been meaning to do stock for MONTHS and I just haven't had the time to do it!
The batteries on both my remotes died, I need to get into town and buy some more so I can do stock.

If I am super lucky, maybe I'll have time today to do some.. but I have no idea what to wear.
ACTUALLY...
My mum's friend just lent me his violin for a shoot tomorrow..
I could do gothic violin stock?
Maybe some with my other instruments too

Now I am really hoping I have time to do some today lol!

Also meeting up with a drummer later this afternoon.

I AM PHOTOGRAPHING IN FLAMES!!!!!!!!!!!
OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Going to their concert Feb 27 in Guelph and MJ has been awesome enough to contact her friend to get me a FUCKING PHOTO PASS!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will be up infront of everyone else, RIGHT up at the stage - TAKING PHOTOS OF THEM!!!!!!!!!


It couldn't get any better than this..
Unless I met them or something of course but man, this is real, this is just so WOW!!!!!

x a billion

I was so happy when I found out I actually cried a bit

For someone to tell ME that MY work should not be in ARTISTIC nude..

GO FUCK YOURSELF SHIT HEAD!

WTF who is anyone to judge what category something should be int?
It's not cool enough to your liking?
THEN DON"T FUCKING LOOK AT IT!!!

I think I just started a band!
Met with a guy I've been talking to who plays guitar today, we're throwing some songs around to play together then we'll choose a day to jam!
I think he wants to get a full band going, so we'll probably look for others

I am super stoked, I've wanted to be in a band FOREVER just never had the balls to do anything about it.

I can't wait to get jammin and hopefully record some stuff, maybe do some shows? xD

So today I am meeting Derek, who replied to my kijiji add about playing with other musicians and possibly starting a band lol
He plays a few things and knows a drummer who may be interested as well.
And I've also talked a bit with another dude named Robert, who plays bass.
I told them about each other, that maybe if it works out with both, they may both be interested in meeting and all playing together.
So I am nervous but excited to meet Derek! lol

Tomorrow is a big day for me, shooting boudoir all afternoon and night!
Rented a gorgeous hotel in Chatham, surprised I actually have 5 bookings (yay money for new instruments!)

I am trying to force myself to get more active and do more stretches, but I easily forget.
I used to be so active when I figure skated, now I can't even touch my toes!!! Pathetic

So my birthday is in March and I have no idea what to do for it.
Kinda wanted to do something like have an awesome space rented and have a bunch of friends come and do something but I don't know.
Last year I tried that over two days and two friends came one day and 3 came the other, out of a bunch of people I invited.
So maybe I will just do something for myself?
*shrug*

Ps.. SNOWWW!!!

If anyone cares what I've been up to the last couple days;

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I taught myself that much in an hour and a half or so yesterday.
The rest gets harder and I'm like ughhh do I really have to figure that out too???
So I am being slow on the rest lol

Anywho, I played piano for years when I was young and guitar for a few years on and off too.
I haven't touched either in 5 or more years so I thought I'd start playing guitar and piano again.


Anddd....


I AM GETTIING DRUMS BOO YEAHHH!!!
I don't know what type to get or how much I want to spend..
The least amount as possible would be nice, but I don't want cheap drums, I want good quality drums but can't afford the most expensive ones ever.
I don't want to have to upgrade the drum kit in the near future, I want to be able to add pieces to it.

And then I hope to get a bass xD
Or bass first? hmmm dilemma..

Hope all is well and may the music be with you

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I created a new page for models to share photos and network.
I have been put on a few pages but some are not updated that well, or very organized and or run by teenagers lol.
So I wanted to create a page that didn't over or under post and only posted those who actually do some modeling, not just fun cute shots of theirself.

Anyone over 18 and has done at least 3 shoots with 3 different photographers is welcome to submit an application to have their own album and the album can be updated once weekly.

If anyone would like to share the page that'd be wonderful to get it going, thanks!

I AM SICK!!!
And I hate it... worst thing ever is being physically ill. Some may say no being mentally ill is worse and that may be true for some people, but I've been so mentally ill in my life that I can deal with it now, I can take control of it.
I can't take fucking control of physical sickness AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
I thought it was allergies at first, but no allergy medicine is working so it's gotta be a head cold.
I took a claritin at 11 pm last night, 24 hour pill with sinus stuff in it too.
It did nothing.
So sleeping was balls and then I had to drag my ass alllll fucking day without any pills!
I can't wait for 11 fuck!
I need my advil cold and sinus!
Or maybe nyquil... that sounds good right now too lol

Soooo...
On the 24th I had a paid shoot of a pretty old mare.
On the 25th I had a paid shoot last minute as well as photographed some pretty horses (haven't uploaded those yet but uploaded a couple from today and yesterday).
26h... I don't think I did anything... now I feel like I am forgetting something.
27th I had a paid shoot with a bunch of horses
Today, 28th, had another paid shoot with a young girl and her horse
Tomorrow I told my friend I would photograph his pretty paint (for my portfolio) but not so sure I wanna do that now.. so sick!!
But we are so lucky to have snow right now, I wanna make good use of it!
I planned to photograph this horse last year with snow and we never got snow lol.
So not sure what I am going to do about that.. I guess I will see how I feel tomorrow.
Sunday ANOTHER paid shoot with a young girl and her horse
Monday.. ?? You guessed it - another paid shoot with a horse
Tuesday, hopefully if I am well enough to stay in London for new years 1-2 creative model shoots.

And on top of all THAT...
I have I don't know how many more people in the process of booking shoots!
But fuck I am taking a few days off after all that shit lol
I'm going to end up backed up as fuck but at least most of it is paid work, can't complain there.
I think I am pushing myself too much, I can't get better if I keep doing shit.

Buhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Just felt like complaining, I tend to do that when I am sick.
bitch bitch bitch
Don't get sick like me!

...eventually! lol

I am actually starting to save now for a trip. No idea how long it'll take to save and how many places I'll be able to afford to go to, but I have family in England so that would probably be the first stop for me.

I am looking for paid work in Europe while on my trip as either a photographer or a model to help pay for the trip!
I also want to do some TF with gothic alternative models while I am there in super amazing locations - so I need to find some of those!

Again no idea when it'll happen but I'd probably want to go in the spring or fall season where it looks gothic but not too cold either.

Well this is late but if anyone wants to order either one of my photography or modeling calendars now is the time to do it!
I need to know by tomorrow morning at the very latest!
Also need payment upfront, I take e transfer or paypal
They are high quality and a custom layout, nice thick paper too!

Email me to order!
madnessinspiringimages@gmail.com